The cat ate and enjoyed my tongue..

The cat got my tongue so many times today... I think it liked it so much that it just swallowed, savored, and delightfully made the decision to not return it. What is the world coming to? Everyday something new gets to me. Today it is slavery in mauritania. yyyyyyy ? I can't believe that as I am sitting here right now one of those "slave born" slaves is being beaten or chained or mistreated. I can not believe that nothing is being done. I am so annoyed and aggrevated by this and the thought of all those children. I WANT TO DO SOMETHING...and hopefully I will! I now make a promise to myself and all the readers(who probably sum up to only me) that I will DO SOMETHING FOR THOSE SLAVES. you hear me?? good! I will not forget this promise. Now...I just need to think of what i can do.

Who are they and what do they want?

Today I seem to be nerve reckingly horrible sociaphobic... for what reason? I can delve into my subconcious perhaps and present a guess...but I'm afraid I am not enlightened as to where these short phases appear from. It feels like I am a bright green fly among a swarm of gray ones...and it is only so in my eyes.. I get the hair-raising feeling people are watching me only to find out by a glance that it is not so. I am more self concious then a kindergartner being presented to his/her class on his/her first day.

My furrowed eyebrows

Today ...I can't recall exactly what has gotten to my nerves. It feels as though a 1000 Degree celcius metal needle snuck beneath my skin and into my jugular vein...and made my blood just "want" to boil. My eyebrows....whether I smile, or laugh or whatever else i try to fake, my eyebrows remain furrowed at a rather evil annoyed beseeming angle. No sentiment remain's in me today..perhaps tomorrow I will find reason to smile and perhaps my eyebrows will agree its a good enough reason to accompany the smile.

Digging Deep

Today was a wonderful day...if it hadn't been for one phone call, it wouldnt have been so 'wonderful'. I talked to a prism. Everying eminates from this person and reflects the right spots in me...creating a rainbow colored so brilliantly I'm afraid im not diservant of the vibrant numerous colors. You're so far burried in the ground my dear... and even though i know i can not reach u with my bare hands i still dig my nails longingly in the dryness of the compound earth. How i wish it rains on this cold night so that the ground may be moist and i can easily reach for you. You live on top and i on top as well, each thinking the other is underneath. I want to delve in a world of dreams where both are on the same terrain. I want to be deserving of every second you directed to me. Cry for me

The Moon is Out

Today was just one of those unmotivating days, where u sit around and mope about what you have to do. Unfortunately at this stage of my life i can get away with that. I feel like Im a turtle who cracked the Egg and although i beat the odds and made my way to the teasing waves...I still have so many more challenges to go, and i can not affort to look back and celebrate my achievement...Because believe it or not that first achievement means nothing and is nothing to remember without that final one. I speak in simile's and metaphors, its so much easier then the "normal" language. some say its poetry, i say its my way of thinking, my way of writing. Lets hope im consistant and i persue those waves coming at me and keep logging everyday...consistancy is something i need to learn. I'm trying to get an appointment with a psychologist cuz its free for me (or at least i think so). Just for the heck of it. No one ever comes out of psychologists office undiagnosed so I want to see what ailment i would fall under if i were to fall under anything. my eyes are teary, my soul is sore, my heart is weary, thinking of love no more. ... o ya and its a full moon..i wish it had the effects it supersticiously does. i can use the energy